“Then indecision brings its own delays, And days are lost lamenting o'er lost days. Are you in earnest? Seize this very minute; What you can do, or dream you can, begin it; Boldness has genius, power and magic in it.”

Johann Wolfgang von Goethe Going through dilemmas, confusions, mind changes, hundreds of second thoughts and what not!! This, probably, is the most undecided state of mind I have ever found myself in! I am scared- but to add to the confusion I can feel an enjoyment and thrill too- i dont know why! And, oh yes, I am having frequent nights with utterly disturbed or no sleep  at all :(